Thursday, March 31, 2011

The Vision Consultation

Isaiah 63:9

"In all their distress he too was distressed,

and the angel of his presence saved them.

In his love and mercy he redeemed them;

he lifted them up and carried

them all the days of old."

When she knocked on the door, I noticed she was armed with a box big enough to carry a small child, so I wasn't entirely sure what to expect. As we sat down, I caught her up to speed on all of Ansley's vision problems. She then began questioning me about whether or not Ansley was able to do certain tasks.

"Does she seem to hesitate when crossing from one floor surface to another?"

"Does she seem to have trouble picking up small items, like cheerios, and grasp them on the first try?"

"Does she have trouble seeing items of similar color?

Such as a cheerio on a high chair tray or a light switch on it's plate?"

She continued on down her list with my response continuing to be the same. No, no, no... After about fifty questions (no joke) she began to shake her head and smile. She looked up at Mrs. A (Ansley's main weekly therapist) and said something we have heard from every therapist Ansley has ever seen, "Why am I here?!" Mrs. A looked over at me and smiled a knowing smile and said "I ask myself that question all the time!" I felt that familiar prodding from the Lord and began to share the power of prayer and faith in Jesus, along with the compassion, mercy and power he has showered over Ansley. Blank stare. Not an unusual response I tell you!

After a lot more questions, the vision consultant went to the floor to begin her "tests". Ansley had already discovered the giant box of toddler goodness, so the consultant got girlfriend's attention and they began. She passed one test after another with the appropriate vision responses. The consultant (Mrs. K) began to laugh again, talking about how she had never had a child pass all the tests and not seem to have any vision related difficulties. Mrs. K mentioned how sweet and enjoyable it was to play with Ansley, and mid laugh she said, "You know, sometimes I just forget what it's like to play with a normal toddler." I jerked up a little straighter as our therapist reached out to touch my knee. When I looked up at her she had tears in her eyes and said, "Did you hear that, Momma?" I couldn't make my lips move through the shock, but I verbally nodded while the tears spilled out onto my lap.

As the session came to a close, Mrs. K said we would definately not be needing her services because she had no suggestions to even give. Ansley didn't need any help with her vision.

My God, my God how you rescue and save!!!

Jeremiah 29:13-14 "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the LORD, and will bring you back from captivity. "

We had a really difficult few days adjusting to Ansley's glasses. But now, the Lord has just lifted us up out of that dark place and set our feet up high again. Then he displays his delight in rescuing our hearts by granting us with the amazing gift of the consultation.

My sweet sweet is the the most precious angel I have ever laid my eyes on. It is truly indescribable the depths of JOY the LORD pours through her. Anyone who has ever been around her knows exactly what I mean.

If I had a thousand words, I could not tell you of the anguish our souls have walked through in the past 21 months. But, there could never be words to describe the JOY and the PEACE and the RESTORATION the Lord lifts us up with again; the praise HE HAS FILLED OUR HEARTS with (nothing of our own ability) to lift up as a sweet aroma before His mighty throne.

Psalm 145:18-21

"The LORD is near to all who call on him,

to all who call on him in truth.

He fulfills the desires of those who fear him;

he hears their cry and saves them.

the LORD watched over all who love him, but the wicked he will destroy.

My mouth will speak in praise of the LORD. Let every creature praise his holy name for ever and ever."

(By the way, blogger has gone nutty and I cannot for the life of me get my formatting to correct, so excuse the weirdness of the spacing and what not- thankyabye)

Saturday, March 26, 2011


"You are God alone

From before time began

You were on Your throne

You are God alone

And right now

In the good times and bad

You are on Your throne

You are God alone ."

-Phillips, Craig & Dean

Well, it was this brownish-orange or peach. (Peach glasses are in high demand??!) I'm thinking we might keep looking for some different options. It just feels like a constant reminder of the bigger problem- that her brain cannot keep her eyes straight or focused. The first couple of days were okay, but the last couple of days have been, um... not. We are in desperate need of prayer. We are weary of this long, deep valley. He gives... and He takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.

I will praise Him more and more.

Proverbs 18:10 "The name of the LORD is a strong tower. The righteous run to it and are safe."

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

The Wait

Colossian 1:11
"being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience,"

by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for tee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

His Power

This video was shown at the women's retreat I attended. It is SO POWERFUL. I highly doubt there was a dry eye in the room. So moving. Such love.

Sin, shame and struggle SLAM US to the ground.



He was nailed to the cross willingly to carry yourburdens and bring you the FREEDOM that ONLY HE CAN GIVE.

Lifehouse-Everything(video drama) en Yahoo! Video


Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Not by Sight...

Awhile back, I saw the devotional "Jesus Calling" everywhere I looked. And 'everywhere I looked' could not recommend it highly enough. It has been every bit of the amazing-ness that I expected. It's written by Sarah Young, a missionary, who describes her journey of becoming a "listener". She talks about how she learned the art of listening to the Lord by sitting, pen and paper in hand, ready and waiting to hear the Lord speak to her. How it started awkwardly and evolved into a beautiful dialogue between her and the Lord. Long story short, she turned her journals into a devotional. She bases each day on scripture and writes as the Lord speaking to you. I. LOVE. IT. It's especially great for busy mornings (whether a Momma or not) when you don't have the time to really sit and be still with the Lord for awhile. Did I say that I love it??!

The Lord has repeatedly spoken so clearly to my heart through the book. Moments of ache, moments of happiness and encouraging words of His thoughts for me. I have been reading the entry for March 11th again over and over since I read it because it is an arrow of TRUTH that pierces straight to the depths of me. But, can't we all use a reminder to WALK BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT? This world will never stop telling you what cannot be done. The power of the holy name of Jesus Christ will never stop telling you His power knows no limits. Amen!!

So, here is her journal entry from March 11th. And heres to learning to be a "listener":

"WALK BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT. As you take steps of faith, depending on Me, I will show you how much I can do for you. If you live your life too safely, you will never know the thrill of seeing Me work through you. When I gave you My Spirit, I empowered you to live beyond your natural ability and strength. That's why it is so wrong to measure your energy level against the challenges ahead of you. The issue is not your strength but Mine, which is limitless. By walking close to Me, you can accomplish My purposes in My strength."

2 Corinthians 5:7 "We live by faith, not by sight."
Galatians 5:25 "Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit."

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Rainy Days

Grammy bought the kids the cutest rain gear... and with perfect timing!

Zachary needed to make sure his rain
boots were good for puddle jumping.

So, out we went.


When Rob gets home from work, Ansley
makes him hold her a good half hour or so.

Notice those eyes cutting at me like, "Don't even
think about taking me away from my Daddy!"

We have Rob's old playtent from he was little
and the kids LOVE to play in it.

The lookout post.

Smushy Face.

My lov-a-bugs.